I haven’t seen the movie, but I’ve heard a lot about it.  I’ve heard that even if you are non-religous as I am, there is a lot of meaning in it because of what we are in.  It’s not that I don’t believe in God, I just don’t believe in what the church says I should believe.  OMG, we are so not going there yet when you barely know me.  lol

But this dvd has a supreme message I hear.  Working past it all.  One thing I’ve heard you do have to work past is the acting, but COME ON.  Did you think Kirk Cameron was gonna win an award? Nope, so I can’t be disappointed there.  I’m ready for it and to only be looking for the message of the marriage and how to put it back when it’s broke.

This is what I hear you can get.  No matter where you are in the fire relationship, I hear this will help.  Do you want to get to this point?  Do you want to get out of this point?  I’m sorry but until I see it, I can’t give a review.  But I can tell you where to win a free copy! Go and find out what you can from this dvd. We can do no wrong by opening up a line of communication by watching this. No matter how good or bad the movie may be.

Off he just went.  I’ve had him home for 4 days and last night I just didn’t want today to happen.  Weird huh?  No, I won’t get used to it.  I love him and he’s my best friend, so I enjoy him around.  Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate some of my full days and evenings alone to do whatever I want, but it was a really good 4day. lol

This week is SO busy.  He works M, W, Fr and these are the worst times in our schedule.  I dread when the set hits this schedule.  The oldest started soccer and needs to be picked up at school around 4:45.  This means the youngest will be home after school for a little bit, not too bad, he’s smart and this is why he has a cell phone.  BUT, I have a new client that is 5pm appt.  It’s 8am and I still haven’t figured out how I’m going to make this work.  ROFL

It’s a major reason why I have a difficult time taking on clients at night.  I can’t be everywhere at once.  I forgot soccer was starting up when I set these appointments.  This week I have to try and figure out how to make all 3 days work with the kids and my client.

Isn’t working around a 24 hour shift fun? AHHH

It’s still going to take a while, but after 2 years I just may be getting the hang of this.  I’m starting to remember that he’s home and I don’t have to fit doctors and dentist appointments in around my schedule.  In fact, I remembered to the point I texted hubby and asked him to make the appointment.  I’m so proud of myself.

It’s difficult to remember that I can pass things off to him as he honestly hasn’t been able to take care of these things before.  But it’s even more difficult for me to remember that he can schedule it around HIS schedule and I don’t have to have anything to do with it.  It’s great to also have him look at his schedule when a field trip slip comes in because I know he truly wants to go.  I love that he can spend more time with the kids than he could before.  Good for him, truly, it’s awesome.

Now to keep remembering and to keep asking.  When you are used to the control, it’s hard to give up.  Not because I don’t want to, but just because for 14 years that is how life has been.  lol  I’m totally open to learning how to redo it though.  Just keep kicking me

A Firefighter’s Wife

Chasing flames and saving lives is a firefighters thrill;
And I’ll do this job, the best I can, with the Lords grace and will.
But even though I love the flames, the excitement, and the roar;
There’s someone waiting back home for me, that I love even more.

My best friend, my soul mate, she is the love of my life.
I am so very grateful that she is my wife.
She understands the job I do, but how she hates it so.
I hear her cries, and see her tears, each time I have to go.

As I race to the fire, to battle the beast, I wonder how she is;
And pray to God, to let me return, to feel her tender kiss.
I know she won’t sleep, with her heart filled with strife,
She knows why I must leave her, to go and risk my life.

She would only have to say the word and I would walk away;
And never fight another fire, or keep the beast at bay.
But I know that’s something she’ll never do, she loves the man I am.
She’s proud of me for the lives I save and for my helping hand.

Though someday soon, the Lord may say, this job will take my life;
And I must leave this happiness, of my family and my wife.
Deep down inside I truly doubt that she would change a thing,
As long as we’re together and wearing her fireman’s wedding ring.

–Author Unknown

My sincerest condolences go out to everyone attached to the Boston Fire Department.  My heart goes out to each and every one of you for your loss today.  Know that you will be in our families thoughts as you go through this difficult time of mourning.  You are not alone in your mourning as this brings back very fresh memories of our Chief’s funeral.

Rest in peace Fire Lieutenant Kevin M. Kelley.  May your family find solace in the fact that you loved what you did.

For those of you that have not had the news prodcast anything about it as we have not here, you can go to Boston.com and read the article and watch the news video.

Yes, it’s going to be a rant.  Sorry to start off with one so early on.  lol  But it’s just such a big issue!

Mealtime at the stations.  We have 5 manned stations in our district and hubby is rarely ever at the station he’s assigned to.  We assume he won’t be since he’s number 2 to move when someone calls in sick or classtimes need to be covered.  It’s just life until he’s been there longer and even then it’s how it will be for the most part.

But since joining the department the weight gain has not been healthy and it has to do with the horrible eating habits they have.  Most days out of the month they eat like it’s a special occasion.  The first year on it was steaks almost every shift!  I am not exagerating.  The weight gain was totally unhealthy and now we have to work on it.

Tonight was the final straw.  I asked him around lunch time what they’d planned for dinner or if he wanted me to drop some food by.  He said he was eating with the guys.  K, sounds good, but I asked what they planned on.  I didn’t get a response back on what they were eating, just got asked suggestions.  I’m home making dinner for the three of us and he’s texting me they still haven’t made any decisions.  It was 5:45 at this point.  You know that means if they don’t eat now they are dooming themselves to fast food cause they will get slammed with calls.  lol

They decided everyone was on their own just after 6.  Are you kidding me?  I was so glad that there was still turkey taco meat there from last shift and hubby was able to make a taco salad.

I told him this was the last straw.  We will meal plan out the rest of the month now.  It’s healthier and cheaper for all of us anyway.