So I’m a little cranky at my husband today, he just doesn’t think to help me with my blogging. lol He was on youtube last night searching around and finding fire videos of course and found quite a few cool one’s. But he didn’t bookmark them! I told him he has to from now on so I can share them every once and a while on here.

But I got this one from a friend on facebook and it’s a total must share. Enjoy the laugh!

Chasing flames and saving lives is a firefighters thrill;
And I’ll do this job, the best I can, with the Lords grace and will.
But even though I love the flames, the excitement, and the roar;
There’s someone waiting back home for me, that I love even more.

My best friend, my soul mate, she is the love of my life.
I am so very grateful that she is my wife.
She understands the job I do, but how she hates it so.
I hear her cries, and see her tears, each time I have to go.

As I race to the fire, to battle the beast, I wonder how she is;
And pray to God, to let me return, to feel her tender kiss.
I know she won’t sleep, with her heart filled with strife,
She knows why I must leave her, to go and risk my life.

She would only have to say the word and I would walk away;
And never fight another fire, or keep the beast at bay.
But I know that’s something she’ll never do, she loves the man I am.
She’s proud of me for the lives I save and for my helping hand.

Though someday soon, the Lord may say, this job will take my life;
And I must leave this happiness, of my family and my wife.
Deep down inside I truly doubt that she would change a thing,
As long as we’re together and wearing her fireman’s wedding ring.

–Author Unknown

I posted this poem because I like how it showed the other side and that they do know how we feel and how those of us true wive’s would never truly want them to walk away. If my husband walked away because he felt I couldn’t handle it anymore, I would feel like a failure. I would know that he quit something that he was called to do and that many people’s lives would be the worse for that decision.

I have never cried as he’s left and I never will. I may cry when he gets home and that is ok. Some days the relief of him getting home after a shift that I know was bad is a lot for a woman to bear. We’re hormonal and no matter what I do to fight that I never will be able to. lol

After last week being such a long work week for all of us, we were so excited for his 4day. Our oldest had homecoming on Saturday so that day went super fast. There’s day 1 right? lol Then yesterday they had a general alarm and of course one of the guys at the station he went to cover went on the transport. So he stayed at the station until the guy got back over an hour after the general alarm went off, so the station could still go on calls. Totally understandable, but that was about 4 hours total and the evening at that.

Today we did yard work and I worked. Tomorrow he’s off fishing for a few hours and then will be more yard work. Then I can’t believe it’s already time for work again. WOW! I remember when he was first hired and 4days was incredibly long. Now it just flies by.

Yes, I know I’m spoiled with the amount of time I get him to myself. But darn if I’m not also spoiled because when he’s home he makes dinner and I get to come home from work and eat. I don’t come home at 7 or 8 and wonder just what junk the kids ate when I wasn’t there to tell them NO. Then of course, like every other single-mom I have to still make dinner some nights when I get home so late. I’m doing MUCH better and freezer cooking, but that doesn’t always mean the kids are on board with it. lol

I guess lately I’ve just been extra mushy. Our relationship is just so good right now. When I spend so much time with him it just makes it that much more difficult to let him go back. lol I’m promising myself to be better. I’m setting up lunch with my girlfriend of almost 30 years this week and one of the other wives for coffee. Believe me, my days are full, but I’d much rather have him sitting next to me to harass while I’m on my laptop and to make fun of things on tv as well.

Hey, life is good and I am in no way complaining. I’ll take each day that is this awesome and treasure it!

Atleast, we’ve already hit some of the set I hate the most. I hate it when they hit on M,W,Fr. BUT this also means we have two weekends that are open to get with family and do more things with the kids while they are home from school. So it’s a love/hate relationship. lol

But this week is the beginning of the month so today (tuesday) was mostly spent at Tech Rescue drill and then tonight has been union meeting. We’re having issues with how shift & stations bids are going down for yet a second year and also coming up very quick is scheduling K days and vacations. So this meeting was important. It’s been almost 3 hours though so I’m sure a bunch of them went to the bar next door to bitch and complain to each other over beers. lol

Since he has to work in the morning I know I won’t be getting a call to come pick him up. He doesn’t go to work hungover like that. Makes it real difficult to have patience on calls.

So where was I going with this rambling post? Oh, trying to balance it all when he is gone on this set is not easy. Right now my work is slow so that helps. But I still have to get everyone fixed up, fed, out the door and dinners done. Along with the regular housework. Just your typical single mom lifestyle I know. But I’m still going to whine about it, cause I’m NOT A SINGLE MOM!