It’s time to put some posts up for the exact reason why this blog came to be.  Dealing with the grief I couldn’t handle 9 months ago.

I know I’ve hinted at it and if you follow my Busy Momma blog then you have heard some of it, but no one else can understand except those that are in Fire.

9 months ago yesterday we lost our Chief to a wildland fire. The amazing thing is, it was a Sat that he passed and that sunday the 27th that we all were informed. I remember it being July 26th because remarkably that was my daughters due date 13 years prior. lol Not a date a Mom forgets, but now I’d like to let that date slip past unknowingly. Of course, it never will.

So as I walk around today on Sunday the 27th, and thankfully hubby is home, I will kiss and hug him extra. 9 months ago today he was so emotionally damaged I didn’t think he’d be able to continue. We were so broken on that sunday morning that I literally had nothing to do or say. We moved in a fog for what seemed like an eternity.

We came out the other side in a much stronger relationship, but neither of us will ever be the same for going through the experience. When an all call/general meeting goes out on a Sunday morning you know that nothing good is going to be said. You just start calling everyone to make sure that your closest loved one’s are not the reason for the pager going off and the important meeting. Oh how I hope and pray never to have to go through another time like that again. More will be coming, but I can only handle little bits as I do not want to bring this blog down horribly with it.