It’s time to put some posts up for the exact reason why this blog came to be. Dealing with the grief I couldn’t handle 9 months ago.
I know I’ve hinted at it and if you follow my Busy Momma blog then you have heard some of it, but no one else can understand except those that are in Fire.
9 months ago yesterday we lost our Chief to a wildland fire. The amazing thing is, it was a Sat that he passed and that sunday the 27th that we all were informed. I remember it being July 26th because remarkably that was my daughters due date 13 years prior. lol Not a date a Mom forgets, but now I’d like to let that date slip past unknowingly. Of course, it never will.
So as I walk around today on Sunday the 27th, and thankfully hubby is home, I will kiss and hug him extra. 9 months ago today he was so emotionally damaged I didn’t think he’d be able to continue. We were so broken on that sunday morning that I literally had nothing to do or say. We moved in a fog for what seemed like an eternity.
We came out the other side in a much stronger relationship, but neither of us will ever be the same for going through the experience. When an all call/general meeting goes out on a Sunday morning you know that nothing good is going to be said. You just start calling everyone to make sure that your closest loved one’s are not the reason for the pager going off and the important meeting. Oh how I hope and pray never to have to go through another time like that again. More will be coming, but I can only handle little bits as I do not want to bring this blog down horribly with it.
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It is sad to hear that story but it is also inspiring. Every one who have lost someone so close to them will definitely feel in grief.
Another FF was killed this past month in the wildland fires around Possum Kingdom Lake which is west of Ft. Worth. It is and always will be a dangerous job. Stay safe out there.
Peace to all of those affected by the loss. I can say that after almost 3 years it does get easier. The feelings of loss aren’t as raw when I hear of others passing.
No words can describe the grief of losing loved ones, or of the constant fear of losing them. We owe these brave men and women so much. Stay safe.
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It is really sad and hard to deal with but only time can heal the pain. We just need to be strong enough to get past the mourning stage.
Truly Gaby. Time has helped a lot. It’ll be 3 years in July.
Probably the only thing that can overcome the feelings of sadness regarding this incident is to recall the beautiful memories you had with this person. It would honor their memory if you can recall happy memories more.
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Yes, I agree. But sadly I did not personally have moments with him. However, I do have moments I can pull up in picture and I know how instrumental he was in my husbands life and I’m learning how much in my Dad’s life as well. Although thinking of him in my Dad’s life just makes me tweak a little more because I can’t imagine losing my Dad.
@HotWife, I know what you mean. Losing someone is probably something that I would have a hard time handling myself. My Dad is getting older as well, and I just can’t imagine him going out of our life.
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