Every Day Given is Extra

It’s not just because he’s a fireman that I feel this way.  I felt this way since I was lucky enough to snag him 20 years ago.  Every day he’s with me, he makes me smile.

Yes, I’m sappy as hell right now, I’m watching P.S. I Love You for the upteenth millionth time. I freaking hate this movie as it makes me bawl like a baby. No matter how much I want to not cry. I cry within 15 minutes of it. lol Not just cry, but uncontrollable sobbing. UGH, so pretty.

I swore I wouldn’t watch it again without making hubby watch it with me. He ticked me off so I swore I’d make him watch this chickflix. I never force him. lol But this one, now I’m not sure I can share. OR maybe I need to commiserate with the only other person that can relate?

He’s never worked in anything that was safe. I try every day not to take it for granted. It’s not easy, but honestly, you never know when it’s time for one of us to go. I know that I don’t want to be pissed off about the dishes, the socks on the floor or any other little thing. I try to keep things in perspective and I think it helps that he does as well. We aren’t big arguers which is good and bad of course. Bad in things may not get worked out as quickly as if we just had it out. But definitely good in the fact that we aren’t sending each other down the road in an angry tirade.

I made a vow a long time ago not to send him out the door while angry and without saying I Love You. I may not have been successful every single day, but it’s my goal to keep to that. Especially now that he’s got so much on his plate for a full 24 hours. Before it was just construction bullshit, both of us only gave so much of a *hit about. But now, it’s his life and it’s our life. So when work stuff comes up, it does make an impact if he doesn’t deal with it.

But none of that is us or matters in what I’m saying really. I never thought I’d be lucky enough to have a man who is my best friend, in my life, let alone for 20 years in my life. I try not to take any day for granted as every day is a blessing and a day to make at least a couple of new memories. lol I’m not going on spiritual on you with that, I just mean that I do give thanks to all that are listening that I still have him.

I’m not sure that this doesn’t sound like a desperate woman’s post now. It’s not that way, it’s mutual. lol I just really try to focus on us working things out quickly. It’s way past time for a date nite and I’ll bring up if he feels the same way. But I know that because of his past experiences, and our horrible traffic, we don’t take a “have a good day at work, bye” for granted.

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