Well, I’m toasting a long week ahead with a bottle of wine now. Man it’s going to be rough. BUT, alas, I have also started coming up with some solutions and I’m looking forward to some time with hubby to talk things over.

I’m very tired of trying to juggle it all. I understand now why other firewives in our department don’t normally work. I just can’t work outside the home. Case in point: he works tonight and goes immediately into 5 days of classes. So I won’t see him until late Monday evening when I get home from my appointment. Yes, I know this is the norm in some families, but not ours. We have sacrificed a lot over the years so our kids would always have someone at home and I want to talk to him about the fact that it’s not the priority now like it used to be. The kids are 11 and 14, now it’s more important to be in their lives than ever. They need a safe zone from the uproar that is their teenage life.

Things are in a major change again. I’m running for office and that will change things in some way. I’m making just about enough money from my online biz’s to pay my bills and my offline biz has really died down because of this economy.

Call me a sap, but with him gone all next week until at least 6pm, I want to be here to kiss him hello and have dinner ready. I know, I’m old school, but I really do love that and miss it tremendously. I know by my working we are able to do a lot more, but I want my work to be on my terms and not so tied down.

UGH, where did this post ramble off to? lol Anyway, he has to go to training and it’s all week. This is something that happens a lot because he does and always wants to be the top in his profession. It won’t change and I don’t want it to, it makes him who he is. But I want someone here to take care of things as well. It’s almost like we are going backwards to when the kids were itty-bitty. Seriously, it’s like that. WEIRD!